Music that Transports Me

Being a person who may not have played much music, I've always been an avid listener. In fact, I'm one of those people who needs to have music playing at all times. Even when I'm sleeping, I sometimes like to have music on in the background, in the hope that it will seep into my dreams. My obsession for music is somewhat eccentric that I don't find in many other people I know. But for me, music has a unique ability to transport me to another world.

Spring is almost here, and I have a few go-to songs that I always listen to around this time of year. I used to think I liked winter, but over the past few years, I've come to realize that I don't enjoy it nearly as much as I thought. While I used to enjoy the crisp air and other winter sensations, I'm much more excited about the arrival of spring these days. February is always a tough month for me. Even though it's the shortest month of the year, it always seems to drag on forever. It feels like I'm stuck in a dark tunnel, just waiting for a light to appear at the end. To help me through this tough time, I rely on music that reminds me of spring.

One of my favorite pieces of music to listen to when I want to feel like it's spring is Schubert's “Im Frühling.” The title itself suggests that the piece is about spring, and it takes me back to the early spring of 2010, when all my worries and concerns were limited to life on campus. I first heard this piece in a music theory class led by a passionate teacher, who helped me appreciate every word and chord. As I listened to the music, I looked outside and saw the peaceful grass and trees in Tappan Square. I felt that happiness was within reach.

The same piece also evokes memories of a more recent phase of my life when I used to regularly take the Brooklyn-bound morning subway D line. As the train passed the Manhattan Bridge, the surrounding was serene and empty, and I savored watching the sunrise. Whenever I listen to “Im Frühling," it takes me back to these specific instances in my life, and I feel a sense of tranquility and attachment to the spring season.

One album that holds a special place in my heart is “Close to the Edge” by Yes. It's my favorite album of all time, and if I were stranded on a deserted island and could only bring one album, it would be this one. Although I stopped listening to it for a while because I was afraid it might lose its special quality, I recently found a used LP in Seattle and am now enjoying it again with a fresh perspective. I first discovered this album when some friends and I borrowed our music theory teacher's car to visit a friend in the hospital on a beautiful, sunny day in May 2012. We were curious about what our teacher listened to when he was in the car, so we played the audio system and discovered that he had been listening to “Close to the Edge.” At the time, all my worries and concerns were confined to college, and I had mixed feelings about the future since it was only a couple of weeks before graduation. I just wanted to savor the moment before it was gone.

Starting from the latter part of 2012 and throughout 2013, I became heavily invested in the realm of progressive rock, yet struggled to discover an album that surpassed my fondness for "Close to the Edge." This was during my time in New York City, where I was freshly situated and eager for future prospects. Wherever I went in the city - whether it was a leisurely stroll around the block, riding the bus to school, commuting via subway to the Metropolitan Museum, running errands to an art store in SoHo, or even when simply socializing with my roommate over drinks - this album accompanied me.

For me, music is much more than just a series of sounds and harmonies. It's a tool I use to temporarily forget about my worries and concerns, to revisit old memories, and to find peace and happiness.

Coffee Subscriptions and a Dream

I have previously written on my blog that I am incredibly passionate about good coffee. I particularly favor light roast coffee due to its high caffeine content, crisp taste, and acidity. I have gone through many coffee subscriptions and different roasters over the years. I would like to share some of my favorite ones with you.

The most recent roaster that I have been subscribing to is Atomic Coffee Roasters in Massachusetts. I discovered this roaster by chance during a Google search one day. I typed in "coffee," "subscription," and "light roast," and this roaster popped up. Usually, when I search for coffee subscriptions, roasters send me various bags without distinguishing the roasting level. However, I have been extremely pleased with Atomic Coffee Roasters because they offer only light roast selections. Another great thing about this particular subscription is that they rotate the beans every month, so selections are always new. It is always exciting to try different beans from different regions, stimulate my taste buds, and adjust the recipe every day. By the time I find the best brewing recipe and method, I enter the following month's selection, keeping me entertained. This month, I am enjoying the Bali Kintamani.

Another interesting roaster that I have tried is Proud Mary Coffee USA. I chose this roaster because they offer experimental selections. They categorize the beans into four different categories: deluxe, mild, curious, and wild. Deluxe is their premium limited beans, and wild would be something that you wouldn't normally find at your local cafes, such as coffee from obscure regions, unconventional blends, etc. They rotate the selections based on their inventory and the crop quality, so I was able to try many interesting beans that intrigued my curiosity.

A friend of mine recommended Coava Coffee Roasters in Portland. I ordered Las Capucas and Meaza from them. They were solid and produced a great cup of coffee. My friend specifically recommended Coava for their consistency.

One of my lifelong dreams, besides music-related ones, is to roast my own coffee beans to my liking. There are shared roasting plants in the city where I can learn about it, but if I could simply do it at home, wouldn't that be even better? The fulfilling emotion I get when I equip my coffee corner with freshly roasted beans is something that one can't explain unless experienced.

P.S., share good roasters if you have any!

A Fresh Start to Daily Practice

As I was engaging in the morning routine of fixing breakfast and brewing coffee, I began to contemplate the idea of revising and reconstructing my daily practice routine. Each new year brings with it the possibility for a fresh start, and I felt inspired to consider what areas of my playing I need to address and improve upon.

Lately, I have noticed that while I have been focusing on the quality of my sound, I have not been giving as much attention to intonation and vibrato. Consequently, I have decided to include these elements in my daily scales and arpeggios routine. Additionally, I have come to realize that I have been neglecting the importance of long tone practice, prioritizing articulation and finger techniques instead. However, I now plan to increase the amount of time I spend on long tone exercises, with a specific focus on intonation and vibrato, in order to cultivate a greater understanding of these technical aspects.

Furthermore, I plan to incorporate excerpts and repertoire into my daily routine. Rather than dedicating an extra hour to articulation work, I have been contemplating the idea of practicing passages from my repertoire at a much slower tempo. By doing so, I can focus on the small details of the music and work towards eliminating any mistakes I may be making. My goal is to make my playing as musical as possible, and I believe that if I can execute a passage in the way I desire at a slower tempo, I will be able to do the same at the original tempo with ease.

Lastly, I have recognized the significance of incorporating meditation into my practice and daily routine. It can be challenging to maintain a sense of calm during performances, interactions with audiences, and playing with inspiring colleagues, so I have resolved to include a meditation routine to assist with this. While guided meditation is always helpful, I also plan to focus on my breathing habits as a means of staying calm and centered.

Reflections on Musically and Personally Fulfilling Year

As I sit here, blissfully lost in the beautiful melodies of Schubert's Sonata in B flat major performed by the talented Rudolf Buchbinder, I can't help but look back on the year 2022 with a sense of gratitude and accomplishment. This year has been a huge one for me, filled with challenges and triumphs.

For starters, I had the privilege of joining the faculty at Ocean County College as a teacher in the spring semester. Over the course of this year, I've had the pleasure of meeting and working with some truly amazing colleagues and students. It's been a true joy to be a part of such a supportive and diverse community, and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to cultivate a rich learning environment.

On top of that, I've also been incredibly busy with performances this year. After a couple of seasons spent focusing on honing my skills and practicing neglected etudes, I was thrilled to be called for a plethora of solo, chamber, and orchestral concerts. I can't thank enough the friends and presenters who invited me to be a part of these performances, and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to share my music with audiences again.

But above all else, I'm just so thankful for my family and loved ones. Even though my parents are all the way in Korea, they always make sure to send me words of comfort and support. And of course, I couldn't have made it through this year without the endless love and support of my wife, who puts up with my rants, enjoys my cooking (no matter how questionable), and supports me in every way possible.

All in all, 2022 has been a pretty darn good year, despite its ups and downs. I'm just so grateful to be healthy, along with my wife, friends, and family. As we say goodbye to this year and look forward to the next, I hope that everyone has a wonderful new year filled with all the joy and success that they deserve.

And with that, I'm going to wrap up this post by sharing some of my favorite tunes to listen to during a variety of activities. These include my daily commute to teaching and concerts, my solo relaxation time at home, my practice breaks, cooking dinner, writing emails, and sipping on a nice glass of Scotch whisky. There's nothing like some good music to make any activity a little more enjoyable!

Classical:

  • Schumann Symphony No. 4 & Dvorak Symphony No. 8 (Karajan/VPO) - DG

  • Rachmaninov Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini (Fleisher/Szell) - Sony

  • Bach Brandenburg Concerti (Musical Antiqua Köln) - Archiv

  • Tchaikovsky Symphony No. 5 (Szell/Cleveland) - Sony

  • Mendelssohn & Tchaikovsky Violin Concertos (Stern/Ormandy) - Sony

Non-classical:

  • Close to the Edge (Yes)

  • Nothing But the Best (Frank Sinatra)

  • Five Leaves Left (Nick Drake)

  • Bitches Brew (Miles Davis)

  • Turning to Crime (Deep Purple)

  • Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart Club Band (The Beatles)

November of 2021 Playlist

I have been driving a lot this month. I wanted to create a playlist of songs I enjoy listening to when I am on the road. I will later go through some of the complete albums I enjoy listening to as well. But HERE is the list that I am enjoying while driving.

P.S. I have tickets to Eric Nam’s NYC concert in February. So there will be more of his stuff in the December playlist … just saying.

be \ EUNHYUK

100% \ An Bokjin

SUPERSiNGLE \ SOHLHEE

I Don’t Know You Anymore \ Eric Nam

Snoopy \ An Bokjin

freakin’ flower \ SOHLHEE

You Don’t Know Me \ Yumin

Loop \ An Bokjin

Red Muhly \ EUNHYUK

CHEESE \ PARK JI HOON

once, twice \ SOHLHEE

Everyday Lives, Extraordinary Music!

My Philadelphia Debut recital sponsored by Astral Artists is finally happening on December 5, 2021 in American Philosophical Society at 3 p.m. If you are in the area, please come!

I named the program “Everyday Lives, Extraordinary Music!” The goal of this particular program is to unveil hidden treasures in the flute literature and spotlight the lesser performed pieces by master composers. I brought these intriguing pieces together which were inspired by other songs: a poetic paraphrase from Tchaikovsky’s Eugene Onegin, affable Schubert’s art songs re-conceptualized by Theobald Boehm, and folk songs re-envisioned by Beethoven and Joachim Andersen. From folk to operatic tunes, these musical works represent everyday emotions of our daily lives: love, despair, joy, and longing.

The crème de la crème of today’s performance is the world-premiere of American Composer Shawn Okpebholo’s On a Painting by Henry Ossawa Tanner: The Thankful Poor. Shawn’s new work captures the complex emotions of the working class beautifully:  the ongoing war between hope and struggles depicted in the painting. This piece was written for me in 2020 with the generous support of Astral Artists. Thanks to Shawn’s masterly writing and understanding of the instrument, the new work has endless potential and charm. I have no doubt that this piece will become every flutist’s key solo repertoire. 

Tchaikovsky (arr. Kim) | Lensky’s Aria

Okpebholo | On a Painting by Henry Ossawa Tanner: The Thankful Poor

Beethoven | 6 National Airs and Variations, Op. 105

Schubert (arr. Boehm) | Gute Nacht & Die Taubenpost

Andersen | Etude No. 4, Op. 21

Andersen | Ballade et danse des sylphes, Op. 5

October of 2021 Playlist (Music on the go)

I’ve been very grateful this month. I travelled a lot for performing and reuniting with friends. I created this list and constantly adjusted while I was on trains, cars, airplanes, PATH, subway, buses, etc. So I named the playlist, “Music on the go.” You can access the playlist HERE.

YOGIJOGI \ SUMIN & slom

31 \ Cheeze & Stella Jang

SSFW \ CHANYEOL

Cold \ Lee Han Chul

겨울을 걷는다 \ Yun DDan DDan

Perhaps Love \ Cheeze & Eric Nam

How Do You Think \ Cheeze

Let’s Go Home \ Stella Jang

Out of the Blue (with Song Hee Jin) \ DOWOON

Zanchi \ Band Nah

Excerpt from The Philadelphia Inquirer (9/18/2021)

New work by Shawn Okpebholo

New York-area flutist Beomjae Kim, now under the wing of Astral Artists, unveils a work by Shawn Okpebholo inspired by Henry O. Tanner’s The Thankful Poor. It’s a landmark painting with a lot of Philadelphia connections — including the fact that it was once owned by Camille and Bill Cosby. (Dec. 5, $25, American Philosophical Society, 427 Chestnut St., 215-735-6999, astralartists.org) 🎟️ Buy tickets

For the complete article, click HERE

September of 2021 Playlist (Midday)

September is here. HERE is one of the playlists. This month I am sharing the Midday playlist.

For this month’s Midday Playlist, I included both upbeat and calm songs, just because why not? I decided that I will mix it up. I am in Korea for the whole month. I have time to broaden my musical horizon, so I am not limiting myself to certain mood or atmosphere.

Do share your playlists with me!

ICE T \ YOUHA

I’m Into You (with KIRIN, Dala & Jungu) \ Park Moonchi

Amigo (feat. BabySoul) \ Kwon Eun Bi

Shut up, I love you (Korean version) \ Yang Joon Il

Cant’t Fall In Love \ Xydo

Remember \ PARK JI HOON

We’re Cool (with PARKMOONCHI UNIVERSE) \ Park Moonchi

Count On Me \ JAY B

Knock (feat. Park Moonchi) \ Kwon Jin Ah

You Stare Vacantly Into Space (feat. Lee Chanju) \ 수잔 (Susan)

JUDDY \ JuanKim Trio & Friends

August of 2021 Playlist (Morning)

Hi all. I created 3 playlists for myself for the month of August. I would like to share one of them, which I listen to in the morning to kick off the day.

If you have an Apple music account, you can access the list HERE directly

If not, here’s a screenshot of the list.

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21. 08 Playlist (Morning)

  1. Today’s Mood \ Cheeze

  2. Pose \ Red Velvet

  3. DINOSAUR \ AKMU

  4. Wanna Love You \ Paul Kim

  5. A Case of the Mondays \ Stella Jang

  6. These Walls \ Sam Kim

  7. Carsickness (feat. Kim Sawol) \ hwang puha

Enjoy!

  1. Let me know what you think!

  2. Share your morning songs in the comment section!

July of 2021 Playlist

Hello, August. My summer has been so far busy and exciting! I was invited to Kingston Chamber Music Festival, and performed Nino Rota’s Trio for flute, violin and piano. My performance from last December with Astral was live broadcasted on WQXR New York. I did a recording of Viet Cuong’s Fine Lines with Music from Copland House. I got to see lots of old friends coming through the New York area, went to 10 different furniture shops to search for sectionals, sofas, couches, etc, won the lottery for Shakespeare in the Park, and moved to a new place!

During that busy month, music really calmed me down, and helped me go through all of them. Today, I would like to share them with you.

Nino Rota, Trio for flute, violin and pianoThis is the piece I played at Kingston Chamber Music Festival. This is a very fun piece to play and listen to. I am so happy that I got to play this hidden masterpiece

Nino Rota, Trio for flute, violin and piano

This is the piece I played at Kingston Chamber Music Festival. This is a very fun piece to play and listen to. I am so happy that I got to play this hidden masterpiece

Weber, Sonata in A flat major. This piece is originally written for the solo piano, but I have heard it on the flute and piano more. I am thinking about programming this exciting piece for a December Astral Recital in Philadelphia.

Weber, Sonata in A flat major. This piece is originally written for the solo piano, but I have heard it on the flute and piano more. I am thinking about programming this exciting piece for a December Astral Recital in Philadelphia.

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Enjoy!

Q1 Film List (Selected)

I would like to share a list of films I enjoyed watching. These motion pictures are really well made. I highly recommend them all! Enjoy.

Title | Director | Streamed on

A Concerto Is a Conversation | Ben Proudfoot and Kris Bowers | The New York Times

Nomadland | Chloé Zhao | Hulu

The Trial of the Chicago 7 | Aaron Sorkin | Netflix

The White Tiger | Ramin Bahrani | Netflix

Minari | Lee Isaac Chung | A24

Promising Young Woman | Emerald Fennell | Prime Video

Sound of Metal | Darius Marder | Prime Video

Moving

The last time I moved was in May of 2016.  So this move happened after living in the same place for approximately 4 years and 8 months.  Leaving all the memories behind, I am now moving on to a new chapter of my life.  Now that I am comfortably settled in my new place, I would like to share my experience with this particular move. 

(This post was written and edited over the course of one month)

The Bermuda Triangle (written on the week of Jan. 31 / Feb. 1)

Stuff piles.  Especially when you live alone and have a lot of space to buy and keep all the stuff.  I did not know that I had accumulated so much stuff in a studio apartment.  It took me a week to go through everything, and to sort out what I wanted to keep and what I wanted to give away. 

I used the famous Marie Kondo method; if it doesn’t bring you joy, it’s gotta go.  So many clothes, books, kitchen appliances, furnitures, and shoes, all went into the giveaway boxes.  This purging process helped me reflect on my spending habits and plan for the future. 

Everyday on the street outside of my apartment, I left bags of things I did not want to keep.  Within an hour or two, they were gone.  I gave away a variety of items for a week.  I observed that books were the hardest items to attract the general public, but the shoes and clothes disappeared instantly.  The furnitures and kitchen appliances were also on the easier side.  Hopefully my belongings found new happy homes.  I remembered an episode from How I Met Your Mother, where the gang talks about their experience of putting things outside of their apartment.  Size does not matter, and everything disappears the moment you turn around. The urban legend turned out to be true; the Bermuda Triangle indeed exists. 

The Front (written on the week of Feb. 7)

I was roaming in the new neighborhood.  I wanted to pick up something on my way home, so I went into a small local pharmacy/health product store.  I was shocked.  It is a pharmacy, but not a single staff member was wearing a mask.  Not only did they not have anything I wanted (because the store was half-empty), but also they violated the standard health code (and again, it’s a pharmacy/health product store).  I immediately questioned myself if the pharmacy could be a front for some kind of drug dealing.  But could it really be?

Some years ago, I went to a flower shop on Upper West Side.  I thought the flower shop pretty much had no flowers and no trees. I found that strange and I did not go there again.  I found out from a friend who used to work there that the flower shop was a front for some kind of cocaine business.  So that explained why no one knew anything about flowers, and why they didn’t have flowers in the shop. 

Going back to my neighborhood pharmacy, could this store be a hub of drug deals?

Walks (written on Feb. 16)

The walks have been more pleasant in the new neighborhood than in my previous neighborhood.  Although there isn’t a good park, the neighborhood stroll has been more fun.  There are new residential establishments, characteristic blocks, and various local businesses.  

Yesterday, I walked to a neighborhood where there is no subway line. It’s very close to the water, and because there is no subway, the neighborhood seemed a bit older than the ones near the stations.  Definitely more family oriented, and more suburban looking.  Anyway, I found a breakfast-all-day bistro, which closes at 6 p.m.  The impression I got based on their menu: the place is an elevated American diner.  According to Google Maps, the bistro has a very high rating, and seems to have a lot of regulars.  Because it is fairly distant from the public transit (a lower floating population), I figured that this place perhaps would be a safer place for an indoor dining experience.  With the newly reduced restriction, the indoor dining in NYC has been popular again, though I am not confident to go in and risk (just yet).  But with this new breakfast-all-day business, I might find an awkward time block (in-between meals) to have a quick and proper dinning experience.  

Or again … because restaurants have liquor license, can this place be a front for an alcohol smuggling operation?  I doubt that.

I gotta stop questioning things, and should perhaps have more faith in humanity. 

January of 2021 Playlist

Hello world,

1.1:

It’s been crazy busy! Packing and moving are happening in the middle of the global pandemic. My anxiety level is going up for unforeseen and unexpected matters such as the moving element itself, arranging movers, and etc.

1.2:

The music of Beethoven has been soothing during this personally and globally anxious time. I have been listening to the 1st Piano Concerto from the beginning of the month. I shared a post about what I was listening exactly a year ago on my blog: Click here to read. One year ago, I surely listened to a lot of Bach, and that taste came back in December when a friend of mine recommended a few cantatas by Bach. [I enjoyed watching live recordings of them on the Netherlands Bach Society’s YouTube Channel]

1.3:

I always loved listening to this album particularly because of Zimerman’s poetic and dreamy interpretation.

Anyway … another reason I started listening to the Beethoven Piano Concerto No. 1 is that Krystian Zimerman’s recording came out. Growing up, I obsessively listened to his recordings of Chopin’s Ballads, Liszt’s Sonata, Debussy’s Preludes, Brahms’ Concerti, and Beethoven’s Concerti.

… and his new Beethoven’s Piano Concerto No. 1 came out. Later this year, the whole complete set will come out … !

2.1:

I went down the rabbit hole of the first concerto. I did not do much research on the piece, but I found out who else recorded the piece. I found a few favorite ones, and I would love to share them with you all.

  • Alfred Brendel / Sir Simon Rattle / Wiener Philharmoniker

  • Alfred Brendel / James Levine / Chicago Symphony Orchestra

  • Mitsuko Uchida / Sir Simon Rattle / Berliner Philharmoniker

  • Mitsuko Uchida / Kurt Sanderling / Symphonieorchester des Bayerischen Rundfunks

  • Alicia de Larrocha / Riccardo Chailly / RSO Berlin

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3.1:

Do check out Zimerman’s older recording of the same piece. He is playing and conducting, which brings more “chamber-music-like” feel to the piece. There’s also a video version in addition to the audio only, so do enjoy!

Devoción: Wild Forest

Devoción

1.1:

I bought their whole beans for the first time for a personal use. I have visited their Flatiron location a few times over the course of past few years. The Flatiron location is conveniently located near subway stops and Madison Sq. Park, where you can bring your coffee on a stroll. The 12 oz. bag I purchased is 100% Colombian: Wild Forest ($17 + tax).

1.2:

The major aroma/taste notes I got are: berries, black cherries, hints of butter and chocolate.

  • Hario V60: the aroma of wild berries, and the taste of buttery chocolate.

  • Espresso: Dark fruits and berries kick off the initial taste; then, chocolaty sweetness smoothly rounds off the tasting journey.

1.3:

The chocolaty flavor increases as the beans reach their prime time. If I could visually depict a cup of Devoción’s Wild Forest, I may say it can transport you to a field of wild berries. On a chilly day like today, I had a glimpse of Spring with a shot of espresso.

1.4:

For this particular bag, I did not brew with Chemex. I don’t know which characteristics will be significantly brought out, but I can say that it will be another delicious cup of coffee.

2.1: tl;dr

If you enjoy fruty and buttery chocolate notes, you will be very satisfied with Wild Forest from Devoción no matter what brewing method you use.

3.1:

You can visit their locations in New York City:

Flatiron District: 25 East 20th street

Downtown Brooklyn: 276 Livingston St.

Williamsburg: 69 Grand St.

Also, you can place an online order of their quality beans HERE

What else? What more?

Things have gotten slow. At least in the music world, things are still slow. It’s so slow that there seems to be no movement what-so-ever. Friends and colleagues are considering different career paths. I understand the frustration because I also thought about a series of different career paths.

I started thinking about what I enjoy doing, what I could do, what I should do … etc. The answer is always going back to the music. Both fortunately and unfortunately given the circumstances, music is a destined career path for me. I picked a lifestyle and a career as a musician––a professional one. It has been rewarding because it is not an easy path to follow. From time to time, I sometimes doubt my decision. But music always comes back to me (or I always go back to music). Music is a way that I can express and interpret human emotions; the best way that I know.

How do I love my strong relationship with music even more? Where does my art stand in this dystopian world? How do I enjoy this rollercoaster ride despite everything?  How did my passion start, and where is it heading now? 

The answer is … I don’t know. The answer may or may not come to me. Enjoy the present … that may be the answer, and that might be the answer. But I also know that once a passion turns into work, then the magic disappears. It is no longer love. It is an obligation. So what do I do?

A Simple Skill

It’s been a while since I wrote here.  I have been back in the U.S., and things look a lot better now than when I left New York.  In March, I did not anticipate a global lockdown.  Nobody did.  No one was prepared for it, so everyone panicked.  I keep hearing that there is going to be a second wave late October or sometime in November.  All I can do at the moment is stocking up sanitizers, dry food, wines, and etc. 

But during the initial lockdown in March, I realized that having some kind of skills would enhance my indoor lifestyle.  A commercial-spec espresso machine was a panic buy in late March, but I did not get to play with it since I left for Korea for a few months right after the purchase.  Since I got back, I have been seeing a slight daily progress on making espresso.  It is not a big progress, so from time to time I have been pretty frustrated.  But knowing that I do not need to go to a cafe for espresso shots makes me feel better, and eventually saves me from spending money.

I am not a big fan of espresso based drinks with milk.  So I mainly focus on espresso, especially extracting as much flavor as possible.  At the moment, I have achieved getting the consistency in taste, but still more work is needed for luscious crema on top — given that the beans are at their freshest condition.  I watch videos of baristas and aficionados talking about their experience of mastering the technique. 

There’s a unique espresso drink I have been obsessed with.  It is a perfect summer drink.  Espresso Tonic.  It’s an interesting variation of Americano, but you mix espresso with tonic water instead of still water.  My initial imagination to this drink was not very positive.  But the bubbles of tonic water bring out freshness and crispness, and eventually add an extra kick to the espresso.  A nice way to kickoff my everyday indoor life.  

Tonic water’s bitterness can enhance the sweetness and nuttiness of espresso.  Unfortunately, the commercial tonic available in the market is too sweet because of added sugar.  So I am playing with craft tonic waters with or without flowery, herbal or smokey aromas.  Little extra notes can add another layer of complexity to the espresso.  The fizziness contributes adding refreshing crispness, and that is why I find espresso tonic is a wonderful drink for summer.  

A great and easy variation of espresso tonic is Cold Brew Tonic.  I always love making cold brew at home.  I love the tasty silkiness, and the boldness.  The silkiness definitely carries throughout the tonic water.  If you want to make it much silkier, then consider using sparkling mineral water (with relatively lower fizziness like San Pellegrino.)  I really enjoy the combination of cold brew with San Pellegrino.

I find that a very simple skill to brighten a daily routine would become very useful during a difficult time like this.  The skill will be still handy even after the pandemic.  

A note from a sleepless night

Tonight is one of those nights that you try to sleep, but you hardly can.  I can feel that hot and steamy summer is already here with us—more sleepless nights to come.  I change my ceiling light setting to warm white from daylight white.  My stereo is gently playing piano concerti by Mozart.

Nights like tonight, I am easily sucked into a vortex of thoughts.  On a lucky night, I am inspired to write.  Some nights, I doodle meaningless cartoons.  But mostly I get myself vacuumed into a thought vortex.  A few years ago, I could not fall asleep for several hours.  After countless trials, I finally gave up, and decided to write a letter to my future self.  I cannot recall the details of the letter off the top of my head, but I do remember it was about things I wish I had known earlier.  

The very first thing I wish I had known earlier was that the house I was living at the moment had neither a functioning roof nor a working heating system.  Living in the little brick house, I had a very cold winter.  I was always feeling ill.  Every time when it snowed, the snow directly above my roof melted and the water dripped into my room.  Even though the maintenance checked the roof multiple times, they could not figure out a way to fix it.  The house was built in 1861, and a little over a century later it became a city landmark.  In a way, I was living in the history.  But at that moment, I was writing to ask my future self whether being in the history was worth it.  Years later, I sometimes see the little brick house in my dream.  Even in my dream, I try to fix up the house.  I never saw any positive outcome in my dream though.  

The second thing was about anxiety.  I am a type who easily gets anxious.  I only learned it about myself three to four years ago.  At the time of writing, however, I thought I was experiencing a mood-swing or my mood was easily affected by the surroundings.  So I wrote in my note to my future self that I wish I had known that my mood swing were based upon the surroundings.  I am glad that I eventually came to an awareness of my anxiety, otherwise I would be blaming on myself for having a mood swing.  Being aware of my anxiety is actually relieving.  Meditation and breathing practices come in very handy.  Some say happy and positive thoughts are helpful, but they are not for me.  Emptying my head space is more affective on me.  

A difficult time like this, we need to focus on the mindfulness.  Understanding what we desire and how we can feed our soul and spirit is so important.